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Carried to My Burning Place by qannekke Carried to My Burning Place by qannekke
You said,
wait,
wait,
one day I'll be there.
To open my eyes to the light of your holding place;
how can I sustain this never ending existing pace?


[xxx]

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A chant of nononononononotagainpleasenotagainnotthisnopleasenotherenotthis. Not this, not again. No, no please. No feelings, just a crushing weight and not understanding why and not being able to escape. Trying hard, and yet failing and falling harder every time, and having the feeling of getting up only to have the rug pulled out from under your feet again.

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Entry for HoTS Weekly Show!

Horse: Windgate's Otachi 5463
Breed: Pure Nordanner
Age: 4 Years
Class: Liberty
Handler: Benjamin Wakefield
Stable: #Windgate-Stables, Scotland

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It's been a bad week. I feel like crying all the time now. I want more than anything to do well, but it feels like I just fail at everything I try at and I've started to not even care anymore. I'm scared and anxious and depressed and it feels like there's a bowling ball in my stomach that keeps me from being happy. I feel like I'm unfeeling, I can't understand emotion anymore. I offend people without meaning to because I don't know what to say or how to speak and everyone knows when I smile I don't mean it. I don't want to be like this again, and I know it can't get any worse than it was last year, I don't want to go back to that, not ever, but I can't help it. I'm scared.

I know this is barely a show entry, but I wanted to do an entry for Otachi this week, and I just couldn't make anything happy or show-y. Sorry, no story this week. Thinking of doing something next week. I've always wanted to use 'The Tempest', so maybe next time.

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Luisabelle Featured By Owner Dec 2, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
This is so amazing in combination with the music, it amplifies eachother very well! :love:
Also, I love the flowers and adornments, the pose and the lighting! And the tail and the background..
Well actually it's just very good overall! :p
And the poem thingy suits it nicely too, though I hope you're feeling better nowadays :)
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qannekke Featured By Owner Dec 3, 2014  Student Digital Artist
Wow, thank you so much! ^U^;;

Days are on and off right now - sometimes there are good days, sometimes there are bad days. But I have always liked the quote "Bad times are just times that are bad." - kind of reminds me that every day will not be awful forever :)
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Poisons-Kiss Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
 I featured you here fav.me/d6t45j8

:heart:
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qannekke Featured By Owner Nov 5, 2013  Student Digital Artist
omfg thank you so much ; U ;<3333
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Poisons-Kiss Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
you're SO welcome <3
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August-Bones Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Oh my god this is beautiful. The coloring contrast with the light and dark is great. So lovely <3 
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qannekke Featured By Owner Nov 3, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Thank you so much :love:
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JuliaElven Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2013
Amazing... I love this. :)
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qannekke Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2013  Student Digital Artist
Thank you so much ^U^;;
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JuliaElven Featured By Owner Oct 11, 2013
You're welcome. :)
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